at least

heatwaves and thunderstorms

 

at least

skeleton

I am just a distraction

I'm just a shadow at your heels

I'm waiting for the friction

to take away this static chill

 

and I'll live out of a suitcase

you're sat there with a face like thunder again

I'll ask you twice even though it's useless

and wait for another man to cause you pain

I try to run as fast as my legs will carry me

but I'm rooted to the spot where I left you crumbling

and I'm getting tired

carry me away

drag me away

I am too much for everyone

I give it all, I'm just a skeleton

and I can't breathe, I've filled my lungs

guess I'm just another cigarette to burn

 

I'll run as fast as my legs will carry me

chase myself in circles until it's maddening

and I'm getting tired

 

carry me away

drag me away

whisper me away

I just want to safe.

 

x

 

cave

I wish that I didn't care

maybe then my heart could bare

the weight of your words

the weight of your words

 

I wish that I could care less

maybe then I could be careless

and frequently do things that I won't regret

things I dont want to forget

 

I wish that I coulsnt hurt

maybe then I could scream and shout

and not worry about everyone

and everything and everyone

 

I wish I wasn't paper thin

maybe then wind wouldn't cave me in

a head turn or a coy smile

I can't fix this as hard as I try

as hard as I try

everyone, everything

everyone, everything

everyone, everything

it's everyone, it's everything

 

it's everyone, it's everything

it's everyone, it's everything

it's everyone, it's everything

I feel so paper thin.

x

 

no.3

 my body is consumed by fire

alarm bells in my head scream

but how can I resist when you take me

higher

than I've ever been before

 

knock on my door

 

my head is spinning around in circles

let me take a sec to catch my breath

we've become practically

nocturnal

Is this all that's left for me?

and I wish that this was easy,

easy love

I wish that this was easy,

easy love

easier than this at least.

my eyes are betraying me

I can't draw them away

and my heart is mistaking me for

someone with some self control

knock on my door

 

and I wish that this was easy,

easy love

I wish that this was easy,

easy love

easier than this at least.

count my steps

count my breaths

hold my hands

hold my face

hold my legs

count my steps

count my breaths

hold my hands

hold my face

hold my legs

and knock on my door

knock on my door

knock on my door.

x

 

heatwaves and thunderstorms

salt

let me talk to you

rubbing salt in my wounds never ended up hurting you

and let me take a shot

an open target love is something that I am not

 

stranger to stranger

how long has it been love

since i could just talk to you?

are we in danger of

wasting the time that

we have left together?

 

and it's probably me again

carving lines between my enemies and my friends

and without a second glance

throw me to the fire, watch my flesh burning as you dance

 

you got me believing in gods

that i thought

didn't have any meaning

I'm losing my grip love

this tightrope is slipping

while you're abandoning ship again

 

am I enough for you now?

 

am I enough for you now?

am i enough for you now?

 

you got me believing in gods

that i thought

didn't have any meaning

I'm losing my grip love

this tightrope is slipping

while you're abandoning ship again

stranger to stranger

how long has it been love

since i could just talk to you?

 

xo

 

light pollution

in my sheets, shivering

five minutes deep into a thunderstorm

and it's you I'm picturing

you make the most of the rain as if it were warm

 

do my words deceive you?

 

wading through, I'm misty eyed

five minutes more, I'll be walking with my glasses off

light pollution floods the sky

I am here alone but I do not feel lost

 

do my words deceive you?

cus I'm lying through my teeth

am I getting closer?

am I getting closer?

am I getting closer?

 

I've been looking for you

hiding to disguise my fear

of finding out that you are not

who I want you to be

but maybe after all, I think you were looking for me.

 

xo

 

this isn't a song about you

this isn't a song about you

but this weekend has lasted a year

I swear

count the time, that you said I love you

calm my mind, please don't "say I want you"

 

this isn't a song about you

but I can't help thinking of times we shared

count the time, has there really been any?

calm my mind, I've had one too many

 

and I feel like I'm singing at our funeral

I won't cry, I'm a big girl after all

and I feel like I'm singing at our funeral

I won't cry, I'm a big girl after all

 

I wish that I could write a song about you

maybe I could find some sort of release

count the time, I can't look myself in the eye

calm my mind, I've become so terrified

 

and I feel like I'm singing at our funeral

I won't cry, I'm a big girl after all

and I feel like I'm singing at our funeral

I won't cry, I'm a big girl after all

 

and I won't cry, I'm a big girl after all

but I feel like I'm singing at our funeral

 

xo

 

cruel

if it's what you want

I'd let you take anything you need

you're the cruelest lover

the cruelest lover, I have ever seen

 

if it's what you want

I'd let you say anything you can

I have loved you more

I have loved you more, than any man

 

if it's what you want

if its what you want

 

and what did you expect love?

you know I'd give it all but it wouldn't be enough

and how does it feel to be in control?

you know I'd take your hand, take your hand

but you won't let go

 

and I think the problem is

nothing for you is free

the exchanging of hands

for just some quiet company

 

and i think the problem is

you'd take everything for sure

and act that you'd never ask for

more

 

if it's what you want

if its what you want

 

and what did you expect love?

you know I'd give it all but it wouldn't be enough

and how does it feel to be in control?

you know I'd take your hand, take your hand

but you won't let go

 

take a look at what you've done to us.

 

xo

 

spine

 I don't blame you love

you can't help but shine

you're lighting every room up

by tracing fingers down my spine

 

but I coil away

it's all too much to take

and I can feel my brain break 

it's all too much to take

 

maybe I should blame my mother

 

if we're laying cards on the table

I'm naked here

maybe you were never able

to lay yourself bare

 

and I watch you coil away

oh I know it's all too much to take

and I can see your heart ache

oh I know it's all too much to take

 

maybe I should blame my father

 

and I'm naked here

I'm naked here

 

maybe I should blame my mother

maybe I should blame my father

 

xo

 

skeleton

I am just a distraction

I'm just a shadow at your heels

I'm waiting for the friction

to take away this static chill

 

and I'll live out of a suitcase

you're sat there with a face like thunder again

I'll ask you twice even though it's useless

and wait for another man to cause you pain

 

I try to run as fast as my legs will carry me

but I'm rooted to the spot where I left you crumbling

and I'm getting tired

 

carry me away

drag me away

 

I am too much for everyone

I give it all, I'm just a skeleton

and I can't breathe, I've filled my lungs

guess I'm just another cigarette to burn

 

I'll run as fast as my legs will carry me

chase myself in circles until it's maddening

and I'm getting tired

 

carry me away

drag me away

whisper me away

I just want to safe.

 

xo

 

gums

I think I preferred it before

the buzz between our skin

I think you heard me wrong

how many times have I given in

 

are you your father's son?

and you're still my best friend

and with my bleeding gums

and you're still my best friend

 

and I'm so scared of this lonely

I've spent so long building this home

hold me, show me you know me

or do you know me at all?

 

are you your father's son?

and you're still my best friend

and with my bleeding gums

and you're still my best friend

 

are you your father's son?

and you're still my best friend

and with my bleeding gums

and what if I never feel like this again?

oh no

 

and what if I never feel like this again?

xo

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